Love vs. Infatuation?

I seem to have a love hate relationship with my daughters father(she's 5).Whe we first started dating i was 20 yrs old and he was 28 yrs old going on 29 .He was also a bit hesitant because of the age difference and the fact that i was best friends with his cousin Anya but i was persistant.I had a big crush on him when we first met i was 9 yrs old had just scrapped my knees up he was trying to put a band aid on my knees and i was trying to flirt with to his annoyance.He was only in the U.S though to visit family and returned to Ukraine few weeks later.Next time i saw him i was 15 yrs old scrawny looking and having boy problems he befriended me a bit was nice to me.When i was 19 yrs old he came to stay in the U.S on a more perminant basis working for his family thus began our game of cat and mouse.We dated on/off for a year before dating consistantly for 2 yrs we broke up when i found out he had been in prison never told me.I married (4yrs)some else now divorcing.Think i still have feels